Rainbow of my heart….
White: was pure joy, I lived on cloud nine, I had that
feeling of contentment, the plenitude, it was good.
Pink: was romance, I saw everything in pink, the goodness,
the kind gestures, the soothing notes of this love concerto. I was happy!!!
Red: was the passion, we exist only for each other, being
apart just for a few hours were unbearable.
Green : was the hope , the faith I had in our relation , I
prayed, I wished, I was waiting to move forward, I could have had the biggest
blog, I talked so much about us , our
dreams , our projects .
Yellow : I couldn’t believe it , not HER, not YOU, after all
,our souls have met , they had understood each other , NO , it wasn’t happening
, that betrayal was worse than death.
Baby blue : was when I was avoiding reality , when I chose to
not see, when I told myself that things will fall back into place , if I shower
you with more love ,you will understand that there is still an US.
Beige: was when I tried to enter the justice league. I didn’t
know I had the detective senses or
skills , I had the eyes of a sniper , I could beat the most powerful radar , I
learned codes, I spoke in tongues, I bribed.
Fuchsia : was when maybe you remembered all that happened
between us in the beginning , how happy we were , for a glimpse a became
woman again in your eyes , you start courting me , I had faith and I start to walk again with my nose in the air.
Orange: was fire and doubt, one day I was happy the next I
was questioning and dissecting all your words, all your acts..i had that
intuition I wanted to push it away but it was always there …under my skin , in
my head, it was there like a guardian angel, it was part of me.
Brown : was when I slept and wake up , panting, crying ,cursing
, its waking up with that feeling of persecution, that fear that never goes
away , a fear that feels like someone is pursuing you in a dark alley and no
help is available , looking for you , and once again I was alone in our bed.
Black : was the underworld
, I took comfort in sleeping pills , I became a night owl , I had the
ability to look in the mirror and see someone else, I had the power to clone
myself , looking at her trying to
survive, trying to put a happy face on everyday while dying inside and I had
pity of her. It was worse than a drug addiction the need of YOU…
Café au lait : was the recovery , I was young ,
intelligent , beautiful, people liked what I was doing . Why I was allowing one
person in an entire world full of others to destroy ME. I start loving me, my flaws, and my qualities.
And like seasons changing
On my road to self discovery,
I became whole; I became a strong woman, the one standing in front of you now
saying NO, never again.
The one that knows the colors and the meaning of the RAINBOW.